Crazy LOVE!

This week Jesus has absolutely melted my heart with his power and kindness.

Some of you know from facebook that some friends and I had an amazing day on Sunday where a 1 inch too short leg grew an inch at church, then in the park a boys deaf right ear was restored to full hearing, infected piercings got healed, a kicked in shin had all the pain disappear, hope and dreams were restored and a 17 year old girl gave her life to Jesus! She prayed for us after that Jesus would ‘make our lives f***ing amazing forever’! It was so beautiful seeing Jesus just pour out love on these kids in the park!

On wednesday a friend’s dental infection that had not been cured by a trip to the emergency dentists and a full course of antibiotics was healed instantly in prayer and then at church today arthritis completely disappeared from a local doctor’s left knee! Man’s extremity really IS God’s opportunity!

But best of all and this has just messed me RIGHT up:

So, the 17 year old girl, who gave her life to Jesus in the park last sunday, recovered from anorexia 2 years ago but her condition was so severe that she was rendered infertile. We were so broken when we heard this and she asked us if God could make her able to have children again as she’d seen Him do all those other miracles that day. We knew He couldn’t possibly leave her like that and so we prayed for her then and there that Jesus would reverse the damage and grant her the ability to conceive again. She was overcome with emotion and could barely stand as she said she felt God like electricity all over her body. She thanked us and we gave her our numbers so she could keep in touch if she wanted to.

Well, guess what? We got a text from her yesterday saying that she had her first period in 2 years this week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JESUS!!!!!!!!! YOU ARE SO RADICALLY AND BEAUTIFULLY KIND!

Fear sucks. Hard.

“What if it doesn’t? What if I can’t?”

What if it does? and what if you can?

Inheritance

“The Lord says that there is nothing that you can do that would make Him love you more.

there is also nothing you can do that would make Him love you less.

He loves you

because He loves you

because He loves you

because He loves you

because He loves you

because He loves you

because He loves you

because He loves you

because He loves you

because He loves you,

because that is what He is like.

it is His nature to love, and you will always be the beloved.

And His love is unchanging, and He loves you 100%.

He won’t love you any better when you become better. He loves you 100% right now, and even if you have no plans to become better, He will still love you 100%; because He loves you, because that’s the way that He is.

Even if you don’t want to change, He will love you 100%.

Even if you have no plans to walk with Him, He will love you 100%, because that’s his nature.

He loves all the way all the time. His love is unchanging.

What will change says the Lord is your ability to receive my love, and this evening I want to cram some more of that ability inside you.

So I challenge you says the Lord, open your heart to me, open your heart to me and you will receive more of my love than you’ve ever experience before.

I dare you says the Lord, come on, open you heart to me, give me your heart, give me whatever your obstacle is, I’ll take it, I’ll remove it out of the way, because I love you as you are right now.

I love you 100% as you are right this moment.

I love you as you are, so be loved. You are the beloved.

it is your job says the Lord, to be loved outrageously.

It is why I chose you, and it is why I set my love upon you, that you would live as one who is outrageously loved.

That you would receive a radical love, so radical it will blow all your paradigms of what you think love is.

And know says the Lord, I will love you outrageously all the days of your life, because I don’t know how to be any different, this is who I am, and this is who I will always be, this is the I Am that I promised you, I am He that loves you outrageously.

And you may love me back with the love that I give you; you may love Me back outrageously, with the outrageous love that I bestow upon you.

And know this says the Lord you can only love Me as much as you love yourself.

So My love comes this evening to set you free from yourself, to set you free from how you see yourself. To set you free from the smallness of your own thinking about yourself.

My love comes to set you free from rejection, and from shame, and from low self-esteem, and from despair and from abuse.

Because when I look at you says the Lord, I see something that I love, and I see someone that I can love outrageously.

And I have so much to bestow upon you, so much to give you, so many places to take you in My heart, but you can’t go there unless you allow Me to love you.

And my love for you, will break every barrier, bring every wall crashing down.

And know this says the Lord, My love damages fear, My love hates fear My love will fight fear it will fight fear in you it will fight fear around you, and if you have fear this evening says the Lord, then know that you have a treat in store, because My perfect love casts out fear.

There is no fear where I am present, because My love casts out fear. Beloved, you are My beloved, you are My beloved, and in My love I want you to feel good about yourself.”

- Graham Cooke

Jesus goes to Disneyland! Update with VIDEOS!

This is a note that got passed to be about a guy called Jason Chin who a friend of mine knows and its about some crazy miracles he saw in Disneyland recently, i just got sent the videos too, they’re at the bottom:

I went down to see my best friend, Jason Tax, in Los Angeles, just to visit for a week and hang out—and who knows what adventure the Holy Spirit might lead us into.

Jay and I love to do street evangelism together. On the way down, I saw a Disneyland sign, and I remembered the times of lying on my bed dreaming with the Holy Spirit of revival inside the theme park. I thought, “Wow that would be cool if that ever happened for real.”

I had the privilege of speaking at my friend’s church on Wednesday night, and after the service, a lady asked me if I wanted a free ticket to Disneyland the following day. Yippie, Jesus. I thought, Wow! Those tickets are $94!

Jason Tax, Hanna Ford and I went to Disneyland to have a great day in the sun with the Son—and God set us up through one key miracle of a young man’s shoulder that was in a sling. We approached him and asked if we could pray for healing. Jesus instantly completely healed his shoulder and he removed his sling and began to test it out. He started crying from God’s goodness, and he told us how he could not raise it at all because of a fresh torn rotator cuff injury. He then started raising his arm over his head and moving it as freely as the other one. His friends explained how he is the star football player at their school and he would have had to take the entire year off from football after his scheduled surgery, so we explained the gospel of Jesus Christ and the miracles to the group of eight or so, and they all got saved and filled with the Holy Spirit, and two of them got healed—one of scoliosis. The other had Jesus grow out his leg as his friends all looked on.

They all started freaking out, and the heavenly momentum hit and it erupted into an all-out Holy Spirit healing miracle service in the Disneyland food court for four and a half hours as groups of young people got their friends and brought them back to us for healing. They would come to us and say, “Can you heal this?” as they would point to a lump on their knee or a bad ankle. We would answer something like, “We can not heal anything but Jesus can heal everything and that same Jesus is in you now, so everyone put your hand on this person and say, ‘Be healed in Jesus’ name! Now test it out.’” Really, that’s how we prayed: “Be healed! Now test it out.” Almost every healing was instant as the looks of shock appeared on the faces, then praise and cheers to Jesus would erupt from the crowd of youth!

Flat feet were healed as arches formed in front of everyone to witness. One girl was so scared as her friends dragged her up to us. She was almost crying from fear. We told her, “Hon, you have nothing to be afraid of. This is Jesus and He loves you very much.” She had extreme scoliosis and a dislocated thumb that was in a hand brace. She was still very much afraid so we told her, “We won’t even need to touch you because the glory is here. Just remove your brace and move your thumb around.” She did and her thumb was instantly healed. We asked her to touch her toes and then check her back out. She did and her friends lifted up the back of her shirt to check out her spine. They all screamed because it was now perfectly straight. Jesus! We asked her if she knew Jesus, and she said no. We told her it was Jesus who just healed her and asked her if she would like to know that Jesus? She said yes, so she got saved and then we explained to her about being filled with the Holy Spirit and she said she wanted Him, too! So we asked her to put her hands out in front of her and say, “Holy Spirit, come and fill me up. I give my life to you.” She started shaking under the power of God. God is soooo good!

We witnessed bone knots dissolve from knees, asthma healed, crooked knees straightened out, and eyes healed. Some protruding ribs were pulled back into the chest. Even gold dust showed up on many and three youths experienced supernatural weight loss as their once tight pants got looser and looser. Screams erupted as one man grew an inch taller while everyone looked on.

A super cool thing was how each kid got saved and then we prayed for them to be filled with the Holy Spirit and almost every kid felt a strong manifestation of the Holy Spirit like electricity, heat, tingling all over their bodies or a heavy, weighty presence.

They would then ask us questions like, “Can you make the sadness I feel leave the inside of me?” All their friends would say, “I feel that way, too,” so we started praying in large groups, commanding depression to leave them and joy to come. Kids were crying, laughing, yelling “Jesus,” saying things like, “I can’t believe this! This is way better than any ride here!” Those kids were getting set free. We prayed for healing for the first few kids only. Then we taught the youth that the same Spirit dwells in each of them, and then we watchedJesus heal through their hands! We witnessed around 120-140 healings, most of them instant and about 100 or so decisions for Christ, of which 50 or so were first-time decisions, asking Jesus to forgive them of their sins. Yea, Jesus! One young man came up to me and said, “I never knew that Jesus died for me,” and he yelled at the top of his lungs: “Jesus!”

Watch it all happen right here!: 

 

 

JESUS IS AMAZING! no joke! he loves you and wants you to know him!

Health

Why am I not overcome with compassion when I see the sick?

How can I not be moved to action in the presence of suffering?

How much responsibility do we have for the health and wholeness of those around us?

Hands full.

What do you see when you look with the eyes of your heart?

I see a world of hurt being renewed by the very definition of love. I see a broken relationship being made whole. I see fires starting. I see desires being realised. I see hope and prosperity. I see restoration of what was lost. I see a good God. A loving Father. I see sons and daughters awakening from sleep. I see a beautiful earth. I see whole people and I see an enemy that is trembling as it hides behind the lies it thought would never be exposed.

You were worth it.

You are welcome.

Bring your baggage.

 

Conspiracy Theory

Yesterday I got back from a 5 day camp for 8 to 11 year olds. I was one of about 20 people ranging from 16 to 60 who were helping lead and look after the kids.

I was and am pretty knackered.

Its hard to keep going with some of the kids because they can be pretty ungrateful and won’t show you respect even when you’re busting your guts to try and find them something fun to do. I got really pissed off when the slightest thing would lead to a kid kicking off and I couldn’t seem to reason with them. When you make yourself vulnerable and give your time to see someone loved its really tough to not receive the same love back from them.

But then I think I realized, how can I expect people to give away something they don’t have?

A fair few of the kids are from families that really show them their love but along with those kids there are kids who haven’t been quite as lucky in life. Its easy to blame the parents or the people around them in their environment (because they are responsible in part) but then those parents/people almost certainly never received the unconditional love and acceptance that we expect them to impart to their kids, and the same probably goes for each generation as you look back.

by Zara Arshad

I mean some of these kids don’t even have a framework or structure in their person that permits them to receive love! Maybe I’m a little melodramatic or naive but these white British kids are some of the most impoverished kids I’ve met because of that fact. It looks as if you pour love into them but they are so riddled with holes that it all just drains out as the minutes tick by.

When you give of yourself in an environment like that there is this fear that can come into your mind that at its most basic level comes down to this:

Am I just wasting my time?

Is there really any point to this?

Are these kids ever gonna know that they are worth more than the way they carry themselves?

If they don’t always have reinforcement of this love and acceptance how will they ever know it for themselves?

How can we know that we are significant when the world around us tells us we need better abs, bigger boobs, smaller bums, more money, a more powerful job, a hotter girlfriend and/or (and I’m guilty of spreading this lie even by what I write in this very post but) a more loving family?

How can we love others as we love ourselves if we don’t truly even love ourselves?

I am way off knowing my true worth and I’m way off seeing my true significance or knowing that I really am loved and accepted but I have not found a single thing that has not let me down, lied to me or aged and weathered except for Jesus.

Call me desperate, call me a fool, call me lucky, call me arrogant, call me what you like.

It’s because of Jesus that I wake up and smile sometimes when I look in the mirror and my hair a disgrace and my belly isn’t like a washboard. It’s Jesus that restores peace about my future as a doctor. It’s Jesus that enables me to look someone in the eye and say thank you when they compliment me. Its Jesus that fixes broken bones. Its Jesus that can and will take anything you throw at him. Its because of Jesus that I Am Second.

And it’s Jesus that makes me want to carry on loving these kids, to carry on ‘wasting’ my time on them.

But do you know what? I might get into a bit of trouble for telling you this but here’s a conspiracy theory for you:

Love WORKS.

Love is MORE powerful that the grave.

Love makes all things NEW.

Let Me In

He wants in.

He wants access to all the parts we don’t want anyone to know about.

He wants to give us real life with real love.

He wants our whole lives and he’s given us his.

I want in.

Please come with me.

Unwilling King

Working on my own in a big lab makes me feel like i’m the king of the/a world.

Every pipette tip is one of my minions that i can cold heartedly cast off into the ‘tips only’ box after i have used him to carry the precious pay load of qPCR Mastermix across the veritable minefield of potential cross contamination. Any machine heats and spins samples at my beck and call and even the vortex mixer can be set to be activated by touch alone.

All this power at my gloven hands with no-one else determining my desires or limiting the possibilities, and yet I still end up spilling outrageously expensive chemicals all over the pristine desk and my jeanéd crotch.

Each object in the lab is entirely dependent on and obedient to me in each of my actions, but I have a short attention span, jittery hands and a hugely limited knowledge of genetic research techniques and so what happens essentially a list of small natural disasters.

Now you’re probably waiting for some profound remark about how this can be used to illustrate something about my character or my world view or, dare i say it, the meaning of life, but all I can say is this:

i don’t like it. get me out of here. it makes me think strange.

Simple

I’m on a Neurology placement this week and its been great. The staff have really invested in us and respected us as future doctors rather than annoying students. It makes such a difference when people treat you on a level.

its simple stuff like:

if you’re busy, say “sorry, i’m busy at the moment” instead of just ignoring someone.

mind blowing(ly easy to do, but also so easily missed.)

I want to not be an asshole when i grow up.